Ahjannee

2012-02-14T22:39:00.001+08:00

happy 1st anni to my dearest bi! hope you enjoy ur day. even though we just had a dinner and a short shopping. haha. guess we are really tired after working and got no strength to shop. but I enjoy myself.. thanks bi!

now then I realize my ftt last for 2 yrs.. zzzz.. should have check earlier and book for tp. guess I have to do it ASAP. if not have to retake ftt again..

2012-01-29T23:51:00.001+08:00

today is 人日. happy birthday to everyone! every year sure will have steamboat with family. but this year seem to be different. no steamboat with family but with bf's family.

didn't really have good r/s with my family since I got bf. is not a issue of having bf or what. just that I don't like to share a room with my sis. ended up I will stay at bf's house every weekend. also not I want de.... but what to do? maybe I should really get a mask and a ear puck. :(

this year is so much different from past years.

2012-01-25T01:16:00.001+08:00

cny alone in sg. how pathetic and bored! seriously~ nv want to try again. :(

until now, I still feel weird. don't know why I am reacting like this. is it because I know too much stuffs. I hate it do much. and all I could do is avoid.

another thing too.. I also don't know why I am reacting like this too. probably, I only want to spend time with u. guess I have to change.

I won't be it as a first choice and will consider again. walking back home and make me realize, things aren't the same as past, and there were a lot of changes.

how sad is it. but life still have to goes on~

2012-01-13T00:25:00.001+08:00

talking about marriage. I find it strange and difficult to understand about humans. get marry, ended up husband love guys... weird ttm.

anyway I really hope settle down before 25. I want to have a child at young age. because I know, a baby can bring a family more fun and happiness. of course I hope to have a good r/s to my family. hahaha..just pray hard that I able to fulfill the dreams.

had a great day, thanks~ love you!!

2012-01-02T23:19:00.001+08:00

is a brand new year. year 2012, will it be a better year? hope so.

new year new resolution.. hmm..perhaps it will be same as last year. take my license, more money.. haha.. maybe marriage? ~.~

but getting old again. can't imagine I 23 this year. sound so old. :(

how did I celebrate my countdown. there isn't any celebration. went to Kok Hse for mj session. sun, 1/1 stay at home for whole day at bf Hse, had steamboat session with his family at night. and today is the last day of ph, didn't went out too, except for dinner at hg mall. haha.. anyway I still enjoy. even though, didn't go any places. my best day!

thanks bi~ :)

2011-12-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

thinking in a positive way, this way let me know your true color? if everyone really hate me, why do they still talk to me? is it very fake? if u think the way that i talk hurt everyone, don't u think that the way u talk also hurt people too. I can't stop myself to talk this way, unless I just shut my mouth, if this is the way u want.

even though I always complain, but I am still happy with what I have. so I doubt u will think this way. I only can say sorry, and I will just shut my mouth.

year 2011 is ending real soon. I am glad to have you, and I sorry to lose you.

resolution: I want to go oversea (even though no one is going with me), might going alone.
will fking save 10k.

2011-12-05T23:14:00.001+08:00

this kind of days, how long I still have endure. I really dislike it so much till I treat it as hotel. I feel numb and sad. I suppose to have a good r/s with my parent. but until one day...u came back. ended up, I distance with my parent.

why the fuck you are back? I miss those days when I can sleep alone. the room is mine. but now, I only sleep at my room. other than that I was stuck in living room.

the noise you make, the sound you make, the volume you talk. and you just think that everyone in this house is dead. u r just fking rude. I don't understand why you have to close the cabinet with a loud sound or perhaps you are dear?

I really hope one day I can say "FUCK YOU" to you!!

thankful that I still have a bunch of friends. Vanessa who gave me a surprise for my bday. thanks buddy! my beloved gf, they are always there for me! and of cuz my cutest bf, who always scold me and making happy. thanks~ I know I can do it.

I nv think of anything bad, but just to
hope that she can change that all.

2011-12-05T00:21:00.001+08:00

suddenly just feel like blogging. haha. tml have to work again. how I wish got lots of money now. don't need to worry about money stuff. sian~ but guess I won't have this kind of life.

nowadays I wonder if I was thinking too much. was telling bf that I might have cancer.... blah blah blah. I really scare that I will have illness. now my hair start to drop a lot. my gum is getting weaker. back always pain. what's wrong with me? :(

last thing: when can she be change? i really miss those days that I can sleep alone, without anybody disturb. but now, seriously I hate it ttm. is not that I don't like home, I just don't like to share a room with her. zzzzzz~

2011-12-01T23:14:00.001+08:00

a question to myself: what is a home to me? I couldn't answer when I think of this question. I don't talk to my brothers, parent or even sister. is not that I don't want to talk to them. is just that I don't like to share the room with her. because she will treat the whole room like I am invisible. making noise like nobody business. so many years, she didn't change at all. I pissed off so
many times, but what the use. i will
just forget easily. of course I wasnt the best too. I have attitude too.

but I just kept quiet at home. didn't share out anything to them. I just feel distance from them. yes, is hurt but what to do.

all I wish is to move out of this house. will give parent monthly allowance, that's all.

sometime i just hope she faster get marry and move out. I will be more happier. I got no choice and have stay over at bf's house every weekend. staying with this kind of person, how long a person can endure? seriously I think none.

fk, family issue again.

2011-11-24T00:10:00.001+08:00

what a day!

sometime I just wish to be alone. where there won't be any troubles.
anyway, won't be sharing it out too. I will forget it.

I have lost all my friends and I know it. time couldn't go back anymore and eventually I will be alone. yeah~ this is my life. I better start to do something before the worst could have happen.

since I alr waste alot of time, I will have to go back and learn driving again. back to those days.....

I really wish I have lots of money. first to buy house, and live alone. second is to buy lots of things that I want. third is to learn whatever shit want. and many more.

seriously, I don't know what to do. :(

2011-10-27T00:02:00.001+08:00

today is a ph. went over to bf's Hse to stay. as mj girl will fetch me to buy some stuff for her wedding. ended up we went to her house and play mj. -.-

after playing 2 pok of mj, she fetched me back to bf's house. like a shiok. :) have a nap with bf till 7 pm. slack and went to hg mall to have late dinner. we realize is too early and he suggest to
go to his house and slack awhile. so
I agree and went back to his house. watch running man, and we 2 laugh like a idiot.

around 11.15pm, he send me to take cab. and went back home after that. this is how I spend my ph today.

I really feel so loved by you. ;)
thanks bi~

2011-10-24T00:14:00.001+08:00

is Monday morning, 12 am. zzz~ got to work later again, sian. but wed is a ph.

but still have to wake up early on wed because have to buy wedding stuff, but I am so lazy to go out on ph. just want to nua at home. haha

glad that bf send me home even though I beg him. -,- but I know he will send me home when I ask him to do, :) thanks bi~

shall sleep now. can't wait for my pay day. don't even know what I spent this whole month. money keep spending like nobody business. zzz~ gonna save for my taiwan trip next year.

2011-10-10T23:32:00.001+08:00

finally get to watch real steel. super cool and awesome can. love Hugh jackman ttm. :)

friend's wedding in 3 weeks time. quite excited about it. cuz is my first being a Jie Mei. haha. hopefully it will be fun and grats to her. :)

I want to go oversea. next yr bkk and tw. alright, hopefully I can go and him too, haha.

2011-10-05T23:07:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why. just a simple thing is to put the clothes to washing machine and hang it yet no fucking person doing it. I also need to work leh. wtf. mum come back only put the blame on me cuz I am the laziness. like hello~ iron clothes also me, wash clothes also me. all come home early also don't want to do. one word: selfish!!!! seriously i hate it and pissed off.

enough of my complaining. sian. dont know what to get for my phone. shall I wait or buy? hmmm..

2011-10-02T23:42:00.001+08:00

weekend is ending soon. :( I hate it the most. :(

I really miss those day when we could actually talk for hours, play and joke around. but I guess things won't be the same anymore. i won't ask for more, just hope things will be like last time. feel so stranger now.

I want to go bkk. anyone want to go with me? hmm..shall save money first. got to do lots of things next year. and everything need money money money. zzzz~

2011-09-28T23:45:00.001+08:00

actually a fight/quarrel is good. make each other say out their feelings. still cry over it, not because I am sad. just cry because I feel like crying. -.- sound a bit lame but is true.

after all, everything back to normal~ happy go lucky. although something I hope it can go back to how we started, how we were teasing each other. those days were fun and loving. haha..but now still fun and loving, it just in a different way. miss those days~

thanks bi!
although u suck in some way. but u still give me joy.
let work hard together!

2011-09-27T22:53:00.001+08:00

I tot it will be a good day for me. but it turn out to be so suck. :(

anger words are always hurtful. and I will remember what you have said. whether is your anger word or what, I believe it is from your heart. thanks for telling me.

so many things I wanted to do. shall save up so money first. plan for lots of activity for myself. haha..hope to learn some skill. study and oversea.

nobody is at home now, except my dad. home seem to be so quiet. suddenly feel so lonely~

there are so many things I wanted to say. just forget it. nth change. :(

2011-08-26T09:22:00.002+08:00

So boring.
Nothing to do at work again. =.=

Shall blog awhile.
This few weeks start to have quarrel about game stuff.
Ya, is stupid.
Is already happen once before. And now is coming back again.
There are so much things i wanted to say.
I just chose to let go and forget it.
Because i have prepare for the worst to come.
This is only just the beginning.

2011-08-18T20:09:00.002+08:00

3 months to my birthday. ^^

Last sat went to USS with Love.
Was fun although the sun was burning me.
Thanks love for sitting all the rides with me.
Without any complain.
And we will be going again. (Y)

Love will start working next week.
Hopefully everything will be okay.

Feel like buying a bike to go to work.
Might sound crazy but my workplace is very near my house.
By car, I guess reach my workplace only 5 to 10 minutes.
zzzz.. Can i have more money?
I got lots of things to buy

2011-08-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

Hello August. =)

I can't get along with my colleagues.
Didn't have much things to talk to them.
But still happy with my job. =)

Love going to ORD in few DAYS time.
Like finally. (Y)
Going to his ord parade this coming thursday.
Have to take cab to his camp, cuz is too rush plus dont know how to walk to his camp.

Sat going back to malaysia for my uncle's wedding dinner.
But will be back on sunday, coming back ALONE.
I abit scare. I never come back alone before. X(

Last week, spend everyday with love.
I love it so much....
Get to see him everyday.
Of course there are some misunderstanding, after awhile everything back to normal.
His attitude...I got no comments.
Seriously too imba le.
HAHAH..
Won't be going BKK this year. But going cruise next month.
I will gonna to help him celebrate his birthday this year.
Already have some planning for it.
Dont know which one will be the best. LOL.

Thanks BI.
Many hugs and kisses!

2011-07-18T19:07:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to BOSS~ :D

Random post for today.
Finally started to work last week.
Overall still a good place for me.
And there are lots of things to learn too.

Pre-celebration birthday for boss on sat.
Was late because had to get her gift and cake.
She was shock that we actually bought cake for her. Haha..
Took some pictures at marine square.
Left there around 9 plus, but due to the NDP and lots of place road block. -.-
Walked to selegie with boss and her bf.
Went home after that.

Working at expo with bee on sunday.
Kena complain by the boss because we are TOO slack. -.-
Wth! and this coming we dont need to work le.
Fine~ don't care too.

I was selfish on last thursday.
Told Love that i want him to spend the day with me. haha~
And he cancel his mj session for me.
Celebrate our 5th month anniversary together.
Thanks Love!
Really appreciate what you have did for me.
Was thinking back how u treat me, just like a baby. =)
Have make sure at night i have blanket, fan have to blow me.
I have such a sweet BF, my lovely BI~

2011-07-10T01:40:00.003+08:00

Weekend without LOVE.

Is really been so long since i am at home on SAT.
Sigh.
I was hardly at home on sat ever since i ended my previous relationship.
Was ton-ing with friends every weekend.
And when i was attached to my beloved bf, was staying at his house every sat.
Can't use to it to stay at home on sat.
Haha... At least my sis is not around. The room is MINE. ^^

Chatting with LOVE just now for an hours plus.
Since so long we had chatted on phone for so long.
Miss those days~

Next week will be starting my new job.
Pray that everything will go smoothly.
Plus LOVE stuff too.
Hope he will know what he want and find a job soon too.

I won't say much.
I feel so upset but i hate to see it too.
I just don't understand why.
Thought you will face it but guess you just running away.
Just feel tired of it.
Just let go~

2011-07-05T17:17:00.002+08:00

Is july.
Year is ending soon again.
Time pass so fast. =(

Finally found a job and will start work on 11.
yeah! Happy.

Last week, spent my days with love.
Stay over at his house from tues till sun.
Haha, was madness.
But I enjoy it.
We had haircut together.
Accompany him to buy his stuffs.
Watch anime.
Relaxing life, before start work.
The next 2 weekend, he wont be booking out. =(
Only get to see him on thurs and fri.
And 1 more month to his ORD.
Finally, he will be working full time and studying too.
And no more ARMY life. Yeah~

For that matter, i wont bother and care so much le.

2011-06-22T17:19:00.002+08:00

Is 22 June 11.
Still remember a year ago, i was crying all day.
Anyway is already past le.
But yesterday, I was so sad.
Sad about everything. My mum and boyfiee.
Make him so pissed off.
Sigh.
I am such a failure person.
Now i only hope to find a job.
Get a life.
Finish my driving and get a diploma cert.
And everything need money.
Money, money, money.
What to do? I am not born with a sliver spoon.
Have to earn everything using my own hands.
And i won't depend on anyone.

2011-06-21T16:04:00.003+08:00

Change my blogskin to simple looking.
As boyfiee keep complaining.

Quit my job and i am jobless for 3 weeks.
No income.
Slack at home.
Watch shows to kill time.
This kind of life is enjoyable but don't have money to spend. =.=

Recently having problems with family.
Kinda sian le, and make me dont feel like going home.
Is really sad.
Now i start to stay at my room, using lappy whole day.
What to do? Parents are too xian si le.
Sigh.
Shut up and just let on. =(

Can i have a short gateway?

2011-05-22T21:38:00.003+08:00

Early book in for bf today.
Due to his atec tomorrow.
Hopefully he will be alright for this 5 days.
Will miss him a lot.
No phone calls and text, I will have to survive. =.=

Yesterday, last min decide to go to JB.
Bathe and took bus to JB.
Was stuck at malaysia customs for 2 hours.
Stand until leg pain and thirsty and hungry.
zzzzz~
Took cab to KSL.
New shopping center at JB but got nothing much to walk de.
Settle lunch there and bought a tee.
Back to city square.
Walk around awhile and back to sg.
Took mrt to ang mo kio.
Dinner at Mac.
Back to his house.
Did mask together.
And slept at 1 am.

Today
Watch kung fu panda together.
And back for a nap before lunch time.
Back to nap again.
Suppose to wake up at 3 pm.
In the end, my alarm rang too softy.
Woke up 4 plus.
Left his house around 5.15.
Went to hougang mall ntuc to buy some foods and drinks for his outfield.
Pass jy stuff and had dinner at pepper lunch.
Couldn't finish my mall again. =(
Cabbed to his camp and back to home.

This whole week will be a very long week for me bah.
Hope time will pass very fast.
Want to see him again, my tarzan...........

2011-05-19T17:16:00.002+08:00

Mc today.
My supervisor give me stun again. -.-
Kinda of sian le. Now threaten me with boss.
Wth. Don't know how to handle stuff.
Noob~

Was browsing through all photos taken at fb.
Super funny can.
Especially JY.
And the way BF wear, ugly ttm! LOL!

Really miss those days out with Girlfriends.
Just hope we can go out like we used to.

Thanks for BF support.
He really understand me a lot.
When i am sick, he take care of me like as if he is a doctor.
Monitor my temperature, took so a little bit of sleep.
Unlike me, when he sick, i sleep until no tml. =)
He even remember how many times he make me cry.
Cause he scold me till so fierce. -.- after that will joke with me.
Damn~
Thanks Lubi.

2011-05-10T20:32:00.002+08:00

Time to change job?
Sigh. Didn't really want to leave my current job.
But my supervisor is crazy today.
Suddenly terminate my internet access, cannot surf net.
WTH! Then when i free, i just stare blank at office lor. -.-"
Crazy. She just forcing me to quit.
Forget it bah.

Now another problem is my bf.
Create trouble at camp.
Zzzzz.. Don't even know he can book out this week anot.
=( Sad ttm.

My luck is gone.
Have to wait for it again.
=(

Many thanks to my beloved BF.
I don't know what to say and do to thank him.
He is really a good guy.
Never show temper at me before.
And i am the one who is always making him pissed off, but he still endure.
Glad to say i found a good guy.
Really.....
I love you, lubi. ^^

2011-05-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

Life is like this.
When u help to do something, be it is right or wrong, people will just scold u no matter.
Just want to close my ear, and dont wan to hear anything.
Seriously irritating ttm!

My work place dont make feel like working.
Sigh.
知人知面不知心
Super fake too.
Forget it, shouldn't trust her at first.

Spend my days with Lubby this few days.
Happy ttm!
Cuz i get to him for 5 days straight. =)
Had dinner with his family on sat nite.
Was fun cuz his dad is a joker.
And Lubby keep asking me not to laugh. =.=
Brought him to many places to eat too.
He even bought a shoe for me.
And he still want to get me a bag.

This BF of mine, like to make me angry and laugh too.
We had some argument because he was late. =.=
This bad habit, he can NEVER change.
Dammit...
But after all, he treat me the best.
Will wait for me to sleep first, then he will sleep.
But I will wake him up cuz i got nothing to do.
Muahahahah!
Love my Lubby alot. =)

2011-04-20T09:59:00.002+08:00

36 hours more.
Can't wait to see LOVE and dye my hair.

Today is Nothing-to-do again.
BORING~

LOVE ask me not to go oversea without going with him.
Silly boy! ^^
Shall plan our next trip together.
Should be going to bangkok on aug, after he ORD.

Don't know what to blog about.
I miss you, my lub.

2011-04-18T10:14:00.004+08:00

Monday Blue~

Happy to meet up with the whole clique.
And spend my time with lub too.

Friday suppose to have gathering with ITE clique.
In the end, Kristine didnt come. -.-
Meet up with same clique.
Slack around with them while waiting for lub to come.
Late as usual.
Aftermath went to find his ite clique, tot alot of people came, in the end only 2. -.-"
Had dinner with them, and slack over at 313.
Home sweet home.

Saturday Meet up with lub.
And he accompany me to go cut hair.
Had dinner at Toa payoh, was so afraid to see someone familiar. Off to kok's house to watch tv while waiting for jy to reach. Mj till 4am, went to lub's house to stayover.

Sunday
Sleep until 7 pm.... like there is no tomorrow. -.-
Went to nex to celebrate our belated 2 months anni. =)
Took bus to yck and back to my house.

Now then i realise how important i am to him. Lub is a person who wont show out his real feeling.
So i didn't know until i went to hk.
ILY~! ^^

2011-04-05T16:22:00.003+08:00

Is April! =)
2 more days to Hong Kong.
Excited, happy and heartpain.
HAHA!
Excited cuz going to take areoplane.
Happy cuz going other country.
Heartpain cuz need to spend money on useless stuffs.

Didn't get to see LOVE this week.
Sad ttm.
But glad that we meet up 6 days last week.
3 days nite out, came to look for me.
As usual friday and weekends, will spent time together. =)

Today is NOTHING-TO-DO day.
Bored to the max, can!!
Surfing net, stalk blog, chatting with LOVE awhile.
Time pass really slow.
Still have to go home and pack stuffs.
LOVE keep naggin on me, remember to bring this that, remember to whatsapp me, remember to drink water, remember DON'T FORGET ME..... Blah blah blah
HAHA! Silly boy~ Super cute can! =)
Can't wait to see him next week.

Over the weekends.
Friday, meet up with LOVE.
Supposely he should meet me at my workplace here, yet he was late.
So change to meet at dhoby ghaut.
Went to lucky plaza to change my HK money.
Took bus to bugis to change again.
Tot will be higher yet is the same. -.-
Had dinner at albert market.
LOVE was so hungry till he eat char kuay tuay and nasi lemak.
Walk to little india and took bus to my house.
LOVE stay over at my house since my parents, sister and brother not around.
Did a lot crappy stuffs.
Help him to clean his ear shit.
He didn't clean for a year, no wonder i talk to him always "huh" Damn it.
But was fun.

Saturday
Bathe and off to his house.
Waited for him to bathe.
And went to expo.
Walked around and back to hougang to find kok for dinner and mj.

Sunday
Simple day.
Find KOK at his house area.
Dinner and slack.
Cabbed with LOVE to his camp and back to my house.
HOME SWEET HOME.

4 more months to his ORD prom night.

2011-03-31T13:46:00.004+08:00

Alright, is last day of march.
Few more days and off to HK.
Aww~ Someone can't see me for a week plus.
Bet he will miss me like hell!! D:

Month of march was enjoyable and fun.
Spend all my weekends with LOVE, because that was the only time we can be together.
Went bintan on 19 mar to 20 mar.
New experience with him. =)

Did meet up with the clique.
Doing same old things again.
Movie, dinner and mj session.
Maybe should do it more, so that r/s will be better. =D

Sorry.
Didn't mean it to make u angry.
I really really doesn't mean anything.
=(
I have a great BF!
No matter how tired he is, he will always accompany me. Whatever i wanted to do, he will always try to do it with me. No promises, just wanna to be happy. ^^
Love YA!

2011-03-14T14:20:00.002+08:00

Over the weekend.
Hang out with usual clique again.
And didn't went out together for quite a long time.
Miss those days when u were with us.
Somehow i just hope things could be the same as last time.
Maybe everyone had a fault or rather say i am the BAD person, but not matter what everyone should just forgive and forget.

Went out with kok and wg on friday night for dinner and movie.
Enjoyable and lame outing. =)

Love my weekend with him.
Because I only get to see him on weekend. =.='
Is 14th today. Happy 1st! =)

2011-03-08T16:25:00.002+08:00

Bored ttm~
Nothing to do work.
Still got 1 hour and 30 min to go...
Sian!
Someone pls entertain me.. =(

I miss my LBT!

2011-03-02T11:13:00.002+08:00

Hello March.

Time pass real fast.
1 more month to hk trip. YAH~
Think someone will miss me a lot. Muahaha~

Yesterday was so suay.
Was chasing for the bus.
Yet i step on the hole and nearly fell down, plus didnt manage to board the bus.
SOMEONE WAS LAUGHING MADLY. -.-"

Is true that when u gain something, u will lose something?
I really hope it wont happen on me.
Don't want to lose anything.

2011-02-28T15:47:00.003+08:00

Last day of feb.
Time pass real fast. ^^

Finally D&D had over.
Got to say, I am really LUCKY this time.
And is first time in my life, i already win lucky draw.
Not only lucky draw, also the biggest amount. =D
1000 euro.
Is freaking a lot. =)
Thanks to the luck.

I was so happy until i heard a bad news.
Weekend was quite moody
But overall, i still survive it through.
Never thought that i will actually cry for friendship. =.="
Is already over, just wants to be happy everyday single day.

Next following day, was whining that i wanted to eat nasi lemak and chicken.
And I had it when someone brought for me. ^^
But I know luck wont last forever.
So treasure it and be happy.

I am really thankful.
Thanks for everything.

2011-02-24T13:46:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Brother!

Today working is so damn bored!
Lucky all the bosses are not around.
And is so silence.
I like it!

Yesterday meet up with boss to beauty fair at suntec.
She was so upset that her friend help her to buy wrong color of nail polish.
Keep saying FML! -.-"
Went in to a shop and wanted to get 1 dress.
In the end, she keep asking me to buy this and that.
I spent $80 for 2 dress and 1 top.
THANKS AR!

Life is like this.
Suck TTM~

I am tired of it. Seriously~ T.T

2011-02-15T14:12:00.002+08:00

FTT on be on friday.
And will taking leave too.
Have to go e-trial.
Please pray that i will PASS!
And outing with my girlfriends too.
Bet we got lots of rubbish to say. =)

02.14
Thanks!
Never know this will happen on me. ^^

2011-02-10T16:42:00.003+08:00

Getting closer each day by each day.
But it will be only going to stay this way.

Crappy stuffs~
Won't hope for anything.
This is life!

Boring TTM!
Working life is always boring.

FTT next friday.
And hopefully I will pass bah
Lazy to retake again leh. =(

2011-02-09T13:42:00.002+08:00

Time to update blog!

Month of febuary.
Today is everyone's birthday.
Happy birthday!

This year, chinese new year celebration was quite boring.
Manage to survive through.
Was sick on cui xi.
Kinda of suay lah.
Didn't have internet, feel sleepy easily, sick....

But overall not bad lah, at least someone is entertaining me. ^^

Don't want to think too much.
Although everyone say the same, but i just think that it won't go any further de.
Treasure what i have now.
At least I am happier now. =)

2011-01-30T16:27:00.002+08:00

Watched movies at nex for the past 2 days.
Love the seats over there. =)
Is just a simple hang out days.
Thanks.

Is sunday.
And is boring at home.
Got no idea what to do.
Plus raining for whole this morning.
Kena in the raining while walking home.
Thanks to someone who curse me. =(
Ass~

2011-01-29T13:20:00.002+08:00

4 more days to chinese new year.
Hmm..didn't really feel excited for it.
Hopefully there will are Wi-Fi for me to use. =D

Life is enjoyable now.
I am happy with what i have now.
Simple and fun. =)

Hope it can stay this way.

Slept at 5 am yet i am awake at 8 am. Zzzz
Try to fall back to sleep again yet 10 am wake up.
Sian! My sleeping hours is insane again.
In the end, cleaning my room for 1 hours plus.
Throw away a lot of clothes and things. =)

2011-01-25T10:51:00.002+08:00

Happening months!
Too many things happen and i felt happy too.
No idea why.
I will just stop myself for doing and will hope GOOD things happen on me again. =)

Jb trip with Gf last sunday.
Was fun and we shop until we are broke.
Have to come back to singapore. -.-
Shopping spree for bee.
Dye hair with boss.
And our colors now is so damn.....
LOL! 138RM. Not cheap and expensive. =D

Meet kok and wg for dinner as i help kok to buy his auntie annie.
Dinner at NEX.
Cafe cartel.
Send kok to mrt and went to yio chu kang with wg.
Talk awhile and back to potong pasir to meet vanessa.

Talk alot of rubbish with her.
Went home at 1.15am

Tiring day but i enjoy alot.
Meet 3 bunch of close friends at 1 day.
Woooo~

Things are getting different again.
What should i do?

2011-01-17T21:34:00.003+08:00

Finally brought new slippers from NUM =D
Thanks for accompany me.

Seriously i think my AP is really a BIG problem.
3 years ago, it was already a problem yet I though is nothing.
After reading back those chat logs with him, I find that he was still together with me is really my fortune.
If i could change my attitude earlier, things might be not same now.
=(
What is in the past, just let it go bah.

People taught me a lots of stuff.
No one is perfect.
But I am trying my best to change all the BAD attitude.

如果能... 重来

2011-01-16T04:40:00.002+08:00

Is 4.40am.
And I am still awake. =P
Now then i realise that my DS is 3 years old and is turning yellowish. =(
Kinda of sad.
Just hope that it can survive longer.

Saturday was fun to meet up "Ni" family.
Went out with jy to accompany him buy new clothes.
First time went out with him alone.
Hmm..shop for 6 hours and went to kh's house to play mj.
I won! $5 nia.
Mac for dinner.
Slack awhile before going home.
Waited alone at bus stop for NR6.
Is soooo scary. =X
Reach home in 6 minutes nia.
There goes my $3.50.

Thanks for the entertaining. =D
I love my life. =)

2011-01-09T20:42:00.003+08:00

Weekend is ending soon again.
Sian~

Friday
Meet up with bee and she super last minute call me out.
Wondering why she know i am free. O.o
She made me keep walking up and down for nothing. -.-
Idiot siol.
Had dinner at kopitam and walk around at ms and suntec.
Saw rx and thai.
Slack at mac and she need to charge her hp.
Aftermath walked to selegie there to meet up with boss and her friend zhilin to eat beancurd.
Chatted while and went back home. =)
Do meet up more.

Saturday
Wake up at 9 am plus.
Was waiting for the 2 pigs to wake up.
Took mrt to hougang inter and 161 to woodlands.
950 to jb.
Shopping spree for both pigs and they brought a lots of things.
Hmm..maybe i really to diet le. =(
Backed to kok's house.
Watched 1 ep of 下一站,幸福 to kill time.
Had late dinner and is mj time.
I lose a lot again.
Stupid kok win my money again. T.T

Sunday.
Home and sleep till 6 pm.
Had 2 breads for my whole day meal.
Seriously need to cut down my diet le.
Going to sleep soon lo.....

Too many things can really link back to you.
Songs, places, food, clothes...
But i am happy, at least i still can remember some good and sweet memories that you left.

2011-01-02T21:09:00.003+08:00

I like to read back my past entries.
Don't know why too.
Just find my life so interesting.

2011 will be better year?
Hopefully bah.
My luck in mj wasn't good so PLEASE let me win back my money. T.T

Resolution for the year
Get my driving license.
Lose weight.
Secret. =D

Anyway watched first movie of the year, 鬼也笑 with the fat one and ghost.
LOL!
Saw lots of ex-secondary people at cathay.
And even watch same movie too. -.-
Headed to kok house to play san jiao mj.
Wanted to win back money, in the end i lose even more. =(
Sian~
Nevermind, anyway i win alot of money from them le.
LOL~
Shall play again when got chances.
Not happy to lose to the fat one.

Thanks for............
Thousand of thank!
Really appreciate it.

2011-01-01T18:32:00.002+08:00

01-01-11
Nice day again.
And happy new year to everyone.

I enjoy my last day of year 2010 with those gays.
Dinner was at outram there.
Wasn't nice at all.
Feel like kana cheated.
At least i enjoy myself with them. =D
We wasted 30 minutes at mrt station to decide where we want to go.
In the end, only left me and wg went to watch firework while kok went home and jy went to his friend's house for mj.
Took mrt to city hall.
Walked to marina square, wanted to watch movie but i look at wrong timing. -.-
Ended walking around at suntec and marina square.
Waited for firework to start and foursquare to unlock badges. =)
After firework, walked to clark quay there to take NR6.
1 hour journey to kok's house. -.-
Played 3 person mj till next morning.
And i lose to kok, so later on will have free movie from him. =)

Thanks for watching fireworks with me.
Thanks for going to outram to have dinner.
Thanks for everything.
You "gays" ROCKS~ =D

2010-12-31T16:36:00.001+08:00

Wooo~
Is last day of year 2010.
Going to meet those gays again!
Enjoy your countdown. =)

2010-12-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

Clubbing songs rocks!! =)

Tomorrow is last day of year 2010.
Let's recap about what happen during this year.

January - March
Quit my last job.
Happy and unhappy moments with him.

April - June
Break up with him.
Clubbing for the first time.
Found a new job.

July - September
Learn driving.
Toning every weekend.
Got iphone 4 for free.
Genting trip with "ni" family.

October - December
New camera.
Got a polaroid for myself.
Clubbing with gfs.
Gift exchange with "ni" family
Jb trip

Relationship
Thanks for staying my side for the past 3 years.
And we already broke up for 6 months, hope you can find a better one.
I really thankful for giving me happiness and memories.

Friendship
GFs - last long with your bfs!
"ni" family - hope to hang out more together.
Vanessa - 10 years friendship. good luck and hope you can get in to poly.

Career
Want to get more pay job.

This year isn't a good year for me.
Can't blame anyone for anything.
Maybe i just deserve it? O.o
Working was suck at the start, lucky everything turn to be fine now.
And being a single doesn't mean end of the world, maybe at the start i wasn't thinking this way.
But thanks to that bunch of friends.
That's why i can live better now.
Treasure what you have now because happy moments won't last long.
And it will only leave memories. D:

Hope year 2011 will be a better year! =)

2010-12-27T20:16:00.003+08:00

Finally got time to blog.

23 dec 10
Went to work as usual.
Working was fun. =)
Home, bathed and off to jk's house for mj session.
Played till 3 am and chit chat till 6am plus.
Had breakfast at mac and went home to bath.

24 dec 10
Went to work without any sleep.
Lucky only work half day nia.
Lunch at astons but couldn't finish.
Played few round of card games and off to meet girlfriends at bugis.
Make up at hotel toilet and slack at NYDC.
Waited for rx to reach and exchange gifts session.
Love them ttm! =)
Took train to clark quay and had dinner at a korea restaurant.
Walked around and decided to go clubbing at night
At TCC slack till 10pm and queue up at rebel.
Lots of people and entry fee super expensive.
Hmm...rx didn't join us because she got leave to and meet her colleagues.
Clubbing was fun with girlfriends.
Let's go again next time! =)
Dance till 3 am and leg was so sore! =(
I walked too fast and didn't realise where my girlfriends went.
Hop on to the cab, reach home and bath and sleep.

25 dec 10
Happy birthday GAY!
Wake up at 10 plus.
Prepare my stuffs and meet xl, wg and jy at mrt station.
Off to sentosa.
And the weather wasn't good at all.
Rain, sun, rain, sun. -.-
What a day!
Bathed and had dinner at harbour front market.
Walked to daiso and buy exchange gifts for the guys.
Disappointed to receive the gifts for them! =(
YOU GUYS SUCK!!! =D
Took to train to kovan and slack at a pub nearby.
Drink, cut cake and photo taking session.
Aftermath went to wg's house for mj.
Took cab home at 6 am plus with jy.

26 dec 10
Slept from 6.30 am till 3pm.
Woke up, cooked maggie mee that wg gave me.
Hmm..the maggie mee is nice. =)
Online awhile and wanted to upload photos.
But i was so damn tired, off laptop.
Went back to sleep at 5 pm.
Till the next morning.
There goes my sunday.
I was at my bed for the damn whole day!
THANKS~
First time of my life, i slept for so damn long lor.

I celebrate christmas day so different this year.
And I really want to thank "him", because I enjoy it alot.
My chirstmas eve with my girlfriends and christmas day with Ni family.
Is just too way awesome for it! =)
Ni family will always be my best friends!
Only friends~

Thanks for everyone advise and I really finally understood it.
Everyone told me how fortune i am because when i am low, there will be always friends there for me.
Yup! What for i hold on it when that person treat me like a dirt.
I realise there are many times, he doesn't treat me as human.
Just let go of everything and live on with my life.
My life is so happy without you! =D
There things you left for me is memories.

Hmm....I love my single-hood life.
What else can i say?
One word - sorry
One word - forget

Thanks for the texts, even though we are not close but ur texts make my day bright. =)

2010-12-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

It still hurt!
No matter how many times i read or think back about the past, the pain will always be there.
Is really not easy to heal.
What should i do? =(

How does love change
Is it that easy
I'm left all alone, what am i supposed to do?
Oh baby dont leave me now

2010-12-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Finally went to CDC after mia for 3 months.
Took evaluation test and i pass.
Booked FTT and hopefully that will be earlier slot bah.
Beside me that is a guy taking same test as me, same paper somemore.
I was copying his answer. Yet he got higher than me. =.=
LOL!

Took 93 then 238 then 142.
Super one big round to my house.
Those things that i dislike suddenly I really miss it so much. =(
Just hoping for something, but i know it won't come true de.

Looking at the texts that he sent to me, i find myself being so stupid.
Why i really didn't know something is wrong?
Why i didn't try my best?
Why i still let it end this way?
Why? Why? Why?
I regret a lots of things.
But time won't go back anymore.
Now i only hope that things will get better in time.

What do u do, when u know something's bad for u but u still can't let go?

2010-12-12T13:01:00.003+08:00

12-12-10

Nice date ar!
Hmm..Yesterday had a wonderful outing with boss.
Meet up with her at bugis and had lunch at market.
Think is our first time having lunch at market bah. =)
Then walk to sunshine plaza to see whether my camera can fix.
Took photos aftermath was stuck at parkland for awhile because was raining.
Walked to IOI plaza to find her bf awhile.
Then off to sim lim and waste time.
See see look look.
But nothing caught my eye.
Hmm..rot at lasalle and took photos.
Watched narnia at cathay.
Kinda of lame lah. LOL~
Had late dinner at hk cafe.
And went off after that.
Seriously i rot at dhoby ghaut area for whole day sia.
Love going out with boss TTM! =D

2010-12-05T17:50:00.002+08:00

Enjoy my weekend again.
Yesterday finally 8 of us gather together and went out together.
Although it was only for awhile, but everything was worth it. =D
Love "ni" family TTM~
Dinner was at ps again, was so troublesome to settle for dinner because those guys can't make up their mind. =.=
In the end, we had Carl junior.
Aftermath walked to parkland for toilet break, and took 147 to kok's house again.
Slack and start playing mj around 2 am.
Played till 6am plus and walked to mrt with JY.
First time walking to mrt with him and took so early train home. =)
Enjoy it too.. HAHAHA~

And there it goes my weekend.

Hmm..i realise i got lots of new things.
First, I got iphone 4 for free.
Second, I brought Polaroid for myself.
Third, I had new camera.
Four, I got one super expensive wallet from my girlfriends.

Starting of the year, was a sweet times.
Middle of the year, was a painful times.
Ending of the year, was a enjoying times.

Thanks for those who are always there for me. =)

Those things i am afraid, might be happening.
And I don't want it to happen.
I am really scare now. =(
Too prevent it, there is only a thing to do.
STOP!
Wondering what should i do?

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

2010-12-01T23:01:00.003+08:00

Is December already.
Year 2010 is ending in 30 days lor.
Sian~ LOL!
I going to get a new camera for myself as a christmas gift.
Thinking that my camera which someone gave me for my 19th birthday present and now is spoil, maybe is fate that our relationship is really ENDED!
So is a good start and telling myself: 旧的不去，新的不来。

2010-11-27T13:42:00.002+08:00

Bored at home.
Is saturday yet i dont have program. =(

What's going with my life?
I just can't let you off my mind.
Is there anything to forget you?
I don't know what to do now.
Is been 5 months.
Things wasn't going well in my life.
Do you know how much i miss you?
I know it can't turn back anymore.
And there isn't anything i can do.
Really hate this feeling.....

Really regret alot alot alot. =(

time passed and left
love is faced with a choice
you've become cold and i've cried
the unhappiness at the beginning
you just wrote them on a post card
sometimes love can only be like this it's really painful

what happened, you're tired, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i understand, don't say anymore, love had weakened, my dreams have sunk
being happy and not, narrating them one after another, you can't bear it
those feelings of having loved are too deep, i still remember them

you're not waiting anymore, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i've been wrong, tears have dried, we've let go, i've come to regret
only that musical box of memories continue to turn
how can it be stopped?

2010-11-22T19:22:00.003+08:00

Finally i have time to update my blog.
Last week was super happening week.
Because I celebrate my 21st birthday at home =)
Thanks for those who came to my celebration.
Thanks girlfriends to accompany me and help me with my celebration.
Thanks those "gays" to came down so late.
Thanks vanessa for asking my parents out for photo taking session.
I love you guys. Thanks x10000~~~

2010-11-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to Me!!!

Will update soon....

2010-11-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

8 days
7 days

Hmm..I know what i going to get myself for my birthday gift.
Guess this year will be different from the past 3 years.
I used to have my "Love" one celebrating on my birthday.
And now, I guess i will celebrate at home on 18.
Back to those days.
Hmmm.. kinda miss those days.

Now then i realise how much mistake i made.
Why? And everything is too late to turn back.
I regret it. Why didn't at the start i treasure it?
And when it disappear from my life, I start realise that I am actually had a lot of mistakes.
There isn't anymore chance for me.
失去才来后悔

我还是不敢相信你已经离开我的身边。
你再也不回来了。

希望你不会把我忘掉！

You who won't answer my calls anymore, you who doesn't want to see me at all
No matter how I beg for forgiveness, there's already no use

Waiting by your door, even if you pretend you can't see me
Brushing past my shoulder like seeing a stranger you just met
Waiting until you are willing to hear me say sorry

Looking at my phone ten times a day, even jumping at the slight sound
To find out if you had sent me a text message

Just hope that person is YOU. =(

2010-11-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

9 days

Will be better year when i turn to 21?
This year is really suck.
So many shits things happen on me.

Just now was listening to jay chou songs while browsing through my old albums.
And so nice, randomly an qing start to play when i was looking my photos with him.
Nearly tears dropping.
Somehow, i had a bad feeling.
Which I don't like it at all, but what i can do?
I only can remember those good memories with him.
I have to ask myself, am i really let it go?
Sigh~

I shouldn't use such a hurtful word to say it.
After I cool down, i realise i was in the fault.
I am sorry.
Useless

I cant believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
They hurt so bad that they ended our Relationship
I cant believe it four years gone down the drain
How I wished things woulda happened so differently
I tried to say this many times but still you couldn’t see
You kept insisting, and resisting that you would not fall again

2010-11-08T22:56:00.002+08:00

Maybe I shouldn't be angry or what.
Thinking those action i did, is really stupid
And things are just repeating again and again.
This is not the first time happening, and why is only me?
Fuck~

I don't deserves any good things happen on me.

Just a urge to MIA now.

2010-11-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

Sunday!
I spent my day with my beloved family.
And this is my first day going with my youngest brother too.
LOL~ I know lah.

Birthday is really coming soon.
11 days to go.
Hmm..I got my loves one celebrate advance for me.
So for my actual day, shall stay at home celebrate with my mum bah.
I don't felt disappointed when boss said she can't take off on that day.
So is okay la.
Maybe for the past, i might be disappointed but not longer now.
I don't know whether i should do it anot.
Someone told me to at least ask, if not in the future i will regret.
Even i don't ask, I already know the answer.
Hmmm...haix. Confusing. -.-

This week is super happening.
Especially on FRIDAY!
LOL~ Let's play together, okay?

Everyone got a limit.
I am disappointed for what you did.
Seriously just a word for you - FUCKER!
Whatever things happen to you, i seriously just fuck care.

Shall be a spy for someone! LOL~

2010-11-06T12:26:00.002+08:00

What a DAY!
LOL~
Got long weekend for this week.
Yesterday meet up with GFs.
Finally 4 us gather and had a whole day together.
Hope there will more outings to come too~ =)
Happening day too.
No comment about it.
After all, is just nothing. -.-

说有什么不能说怕什么
相信我不会哭我不会难过
错谁的错谁能说得清楚
还不如算我的错
做有什么不敢做
怕什么相信我不在乎
就算你走了
落就算我的心从十六楼
落下负一层 B座
我也不会难过你不要小看我
有什么熬不过大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多我还是很快乐
我再不会难过你别太小看我
有什么熬不过谁说我不能喝
我喝得比谁都多走路有点颠簸
也比你强得多我还是很快乐
做有什么不忍心
怕什么相信我不在乎
就算你走了
落就算我的心从十六楼
落下负一层 B座
我也不会难过你不要小看我
有什么熬不过大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多我还是很快乐
我再不会难过你别太小看我
有什么熬不过谁说我不能喝
我喝得比谁都多走路有点颠簸
也比你强得多我还是很快乐
我再不会难过你不要小看我
有什么熬不过大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多我还是很快乐
我才不会难过你别太小看我
有什么熬不过烧掉你写的信
忘掉你喜欢的歌绑住我的眼睛
眼泪掉不下来我还是很快乐

Outing with those gays later again.
Hmm....movie again. =)

2010-11-01T20:06:00.003+08:00

01 11 10
Nice Day to remember
Ha~
Guess no one will know today was suppose to be my special day.
But now, no more.

至少有开心过。
I will only remember all the happiest moment.

Thanks to someone who really entertain me during my work time today.
HA!

Is a brand new month again.
And in 2 week time, i will be 21.
Is really fast.
And I had already plan what to do that day.
A simple birthday wish is "I want all my beloved friends to celebrate with me."
Please come true k? =)

My weekend was fun again.
Friday
Went to wavehouse with jingye, junkok and xuelin.
Was quite relax place and we had beer.
After all, i was drunk again.
First time, I drank till so sleepy. LOL! -.-
Took cab to jun kok's house and mj session.
Won $8. Took first bus home.

Saturday
Meet up with boss.
I had a cut hair before meeting her.
Short and ugly. =(
She took off her extension, had a hair cut.
Dinner was Let's Sweet at Ps.
Was my 2nd time having it.
Sian~
Watched movie and off to my house for hair dye session.
She even stay over at my house. -.-
Super steady sia. LOL!
Enjoy my day with her.

Sunday
Meet those guys at hougang mall
Kh is a super troublesome person!
LOL! Guess those who went will know why.
Jun Kok's house for mj again.
Took last bus home.
Thanks for accompany me to wait for bus. =)

I just feel that everything change.
Is not the same as last time anymore.
Is weird.
Can't say out the feelings but...... is suck.
Haiz.

My heart still hurts, I can't hold in my tears
Even though I said I had already forgotten, even if I try to lie to myself
Because I still can't forget you
*My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, what to do, my tears keep falling*
What did I do wrong
Why did we separate
I don't know the reason, I'm so furious
No matter how hard I try to forget, in the end it's still you

Even though I really don't know the reason, no matter what I do will make you mad, right
Because you've always right, and I'm always wrong
Let's go back, stop my tears from falling
My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, my tears keep falling like crazy

2010-10-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

Bored at home~

This week kinda of guai because I went home after work.
1: Save money
2: Watch video
3: Download songs
4: hmmm...secret. =P

Doesn't matter I already have friends for me anymore.
Because I know when they really treat me as friend, no matter what they will be there for me.
I see through some of them.
I am just disappointed.
So forget it. Move on with my life.
The life that belong to me. =)

My currently best thing is SINGLE-HOOD life.
Freedom!
No trouble for everything.
Enjoying myself now.
I really like my life now. =))

2010-10-25T10:28:00.004+08:00

Monday Blue.

October is ending soon again.
Don't know why when coming to end year, time pass really fast.
Haiz.

Over the weekends......
Friday had night cycling with usual gang again.
But this time wasn't fun enough.
Maybe things are different from last time.
Hmm..through out the journey, we were like entertaining ourself.
Obviously was fun because I got 3 entertainer.
LOL~
We rent our bicycle at pasir ris park for $15 and timing was from 8pm to 10am.
We started cycling from 3 am because was waiting for rx.
Cycle all the way to east coast and back to pasir ris.
From 3 am to 7 am.
Had breakfast at downtown east mac, and slack awhile.
Back to pasir ris park to wait for the shop to open and return the bicycle.
Cabbed home with rx.
Reached home around 10.45am, bathed and sleep.

Was awake around 5pm plus by a idiot for calling me about iphone stuff. =.=
Slacked at home till 8.30pm and meet them at compass point to accompany kh to buy his stuff.
In the end, he and jy went to their friend's birthday party first and by the time they reach sengkang was already 9.30pm. -.-
Aftermath went to hougang to have dinner and mj session at jk's house.
Was so lame that jk had to go boat quay to settle some stuffs.
Around 2am, rx, thai and kh left jk's house.
3 of us fall asleep while waiting for kok to return.
4 am, we start our mj session again.
Played till 8am.
Had breakfast and i took bus home.
Was so tired that i was suppose to accompany my mum to NTUC.
In the end, I wake up at 6pm. =.=

I don't understand what human are thinking.
Whatever it is, there won't be a right thing for it.
Being a human is really very difficult.
So just chose to look and shut up.
No point bother so much because nobody will appreciate it.
Just a sentence: FUCK CARE~

2010-10-18T10:00:00.002+08:00

One more month to my birthday.
Suddenly feel so lazy for everything.......

Happening weekend siol. =)

Friday night went to hougang to find jk and wg for dinner.
Had majong session again.
And I won. =D

Saturday
Reached home at 4am.
Was awake by my brother because he want to use my computer itunes.
And ask me about iphone stuff.
While was helping him, he told me that my dad actually brought iphone too.
But he didn't want to use and intend to sell it.
So i asked my dad to give it to me since my 3GS got problem.
Hahaha~ In the end, i got it for free. =D
Was chatting with my brother about iphone stuff and helping him for 2 hours like this and he went out.
Aftermath, while i was jailbreaking my phone, my sis ask me to play majong with her and her bf.
So i played till 5 pm, and I won again. =D
They bring me out for dinner at Chomp Chomp.
Shiok TTM because I don't need to pay anything.
Reached home and played one round and meet kok and wg at my house nearby to go toa payoh to meet the lovely couple.
LOL~
Lucky everything went back to normal.
Really normal. Glad to see you guys happy. =D
That day was full of memories, i mean all the past memories just flash back to my mind again. LOL!
Slack at sky garden till 2am plus and was kanna screen by police.
Spoil our mood and went home aftermath. =.=
Reached home and helped my brother to jailbreak his phone till 4plus.

Sunday
Went out with boss and her BF.
Super lame couple.
Seriously they are very lame. O.o
Dinner was at Crystal Jade buffet located at PS.
We sat there for 3 hours. =.=
Talked lots of crappy stuffs.
But I learn something new again.
Thanks people for letting me know what is life. =)
Apart from them after that.
HOME SWEET HOME.

2010-10-15T10:15:00.001+08:00

Even i have MC for today, I still have to come to work. =.=
Because someone wanted to "harm" me.
FUCK MAN!

Forget it.
I think October is damn suay month for me.
Got throat infection plus vomit.
Whatever I eat, I vomit out everything.
Sigh!
What a day!

有些东西是失去以后才知道后悔
Suddenly I miss the days with him.
Don't know why too.
Miss the days when he love me so much.
Miss the days when he will bring me out.
Miss the days when he "act" cute infront of me.
Miss the days when we were buy meals together.
Miss the days when we were watching tv together.
Miss the days when he pamper me like a princess.
Miss the days when I throw temper at him, he will make me happy.
Seriously I MISS THE DAYS WITH HIM.
Sigh~
The best memories in my life that I will never forget.
I never know someone who actually love me so deepy before.
Is my fortune anyway.

2 more hours to go.
My stomach is killing me now.
My neck is pain.
AWW~~

2010-10-13T10:10:00.003+08:00

I dream of someone.
Is it because I miss him too much or what?
He appear in my dream again and this time is with his family. =.=
Somehow it was a sweet dream.
That's why today I am not tired. =) LOL!

Today I went to check my nuffnang and see who went to view my blog.
And someone was seaching "how to get my ex boyfriend back", and my blog was inside the seaching list.
WTF! I didn't even write anything regarding how to get my ex back.
This is so ridiculous. Lame lah.

是你的就是你的! Agree with this.

I asked my sister about her 21st birthday celebration which is 5 years ago. =.=
She asked to start doing research, invitation...blah blah blah.
Haiz... I scare things might happen that day. D:
How how how?
Is good to have a mini celebration because
1) I won't regret for not celebration
2) Meeting up with old friends
3) All my friends are celebrating with me
Still considering. hmmm.....Should i put it on tuesday night or wednesday afternoon?

2010-10-11T10:33:00.002+08:00

What a day!
I don't know why my appetitze is getting better now.
Maybe I am happy? LOL!
I being eating alot sia. Getting my old weight soon! =.=
Need to stop eating now.

While I was working, i was surfing net.
And randomly I went to type "crystal jade steamboat", and saw lots of post.
Make me craving for it.
Free flow of XLB, is like OMG!!!!
No matter what, I WANT TO GO THERE AND EAT.
And didn't expected boss and bee is willing to go there with me. =)
YEAH~ Love you girls!!!!
Shall eat on friday.
If really nice, next week gathering shall bring them to go there and eat.
HAHAHAHA~

Jingye is coming back real soon.
Kinda of miss him.
I want to see his expression..
Can imagine now....hahahahaha

My home is so quiet nowadays.
Mum is at malaysia.
Youngest bro is NS.
Oldest bro don't know go where. Didn't saw him for 2 days already.
Sister staying at her Bf's house.
By the time I reach home everyday, my dad had already fall asleep.
AWW~~ SIAN!! =(((

2010-10-10T17:23:00.003+08:00

No voice weekend. =(
Friday
Was feeling sick but still can go out and ton. =.=
Meet up with girlfriends.
Is like so long that 4 of us gather together.
But guess we shall meet once every 2 weeks. Hopefully~
Time pass fast. Meet up for dinner and had to leave to meet those guys for night cycling.
By the time they reached pasir ris, all bicycles shop had close.
In the end, we slack at changi beach there.
LOL! Is another fun day.

Saturday
We agree to meet up to watch "the other guys" at cathay.
So we asked thai and xian to buy tickets while we 3 meet up later for dinner.
Slack at SOTA while waiting the "couple" to arrive.
Didn't expected things work out on them so fast.
Grats to them! Long lasting k?
Although when i saw them holding hands, I was shocked. O.o
Thought that i will feel jealous, sad or whatever, but i feel nothing.
I am glad that you two FINALLY get together.
The 2 friends once was my best, close and hanging out together de friend, and now they are together. Funny ar but happy. =D
Lan session aftermath.
Walked to clark quay to wait for first bus.
Home sweet home!

We!! 4 of us! Lame and iphone gang.

Finally rx is attached.
So 3 of you must be happy with your partner.
I feel like my 3 daughters are getting marry. =.=
Like what I always said: "要开心!"
Remember ok?
Although I am not a good friend, but if you guys need someone to accompany, just call me. =)
No matter what, I will be there for you guys.........

Enjoying my single-hood life now.
Because I am happy for what I have now.
There are lots of people really care for me.
Although they didn't show it out, but i know.
Thanks!! I feel very blessed already.
A simple SMS, also bright up my day. LOL! =D

2010-10-08T12:24:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. ok, i shouldn't be mad or what.
I am leading a good life now.
There are someone there for me. So what else do i need?
=) Just be happy.

I am really tired of everything.
The more I care, the more I am being KPO.
What for?
So I will just FUCK care.

Enjoy LIFE! -.-"

2010-10-07T09:47:00.004+08:00

Thanks for yesterday night!
I think I am just making things worst.
But anyway I won't do it again.
What's the point? LOL!
I lost 2 BFF yet i am glad that I gain another one!

Thanks Junkok for being at myside when I needed someone. =D
But don't put anything else into it ok?
FUCK THE FEELING THING! LOL!
You should understand what i am talking about right?
I am touched for accompany me yesterday..all i can said is "rare!"
hahaha.. But thanks anyway.
It's good to dream but sometimes we can turn dream to reality.

Because of something, I nearly lose my job.
But lucky my supervisor is such a good person.
And now no matter what, I will be a good girl and go to work everyday.
Regardless how tired i am, I still have to drag myself to work.
Thanks for my 2 colleagues helped me to say alots of good words for me.
So touched for it.

I know that the things i expected, it won't happen.
But things that I don't expect, it happen.
So I rather not think anymore and live on with my life.
I still got lots of good friends around me.
What for? LOL!
Thanks people for listening to my rubbish this past few weeks.
Is really too much shits happening on me.
So wake me up when september ends, althought it had already ended.

Vanessa told me that last time I was a cheerful person until I had a BF.
I started to change.
Changed to a person who is very emotional.
Seldom meet up with them.
When got trouble then find them.
She still treat me as a very best friend no matter what.
I am touched to hear there because I treat her very nasty last time.
But thanks buddy!
Thanks to be myside too.

That's why I treasure every friendship I have now.
Because I know once you get into a relationship, you won't able to balance it UNLESS you are a pro.
I still believe it's hard. But I have to be understanding lah.

I going to date all my old "close" friends out soon.
Hopefully things will get better soon.
And memories will kept in my heart forever.
Thanks for the memories. =D

I keep writing alots of rubbish because i got NOTHING to do at work.
Surfing net to kill time. Sian~
I think I might be celebrating my birthday at home.
Mini-catering... Still considering.
Because I want someone to be there but i guess nobody want to see him and he won't turn up too.
I feel like I misses everyone.
Him, him and him. LOL!
------------------------------------------------------------------------
2 more hours to go..
I really got nothing to do at home.
Just wasting my time at work lor.
Sian sia.
Feel like sleeping now.
"Mj" girl told me alots of thing. And I kanna scolded by her. LOL!
But she really gave me alot of advices, some might be wrong but if i follow what she said, i won't make myself suffer.
Maybe boss, vann and kok words too.
I am sorry for my stubborn mindset.
Now I will listen to what you all told me. =D
Goodbye and Hello.

2010-10-06T10:01:00.004+08:00

MC for the day.
Guess my supervisor was pissed with me, tomorrow she will talk to me. =.=
Feel damn bad for my poor attendance.
Hais.

I went to read through my past entries again.
And realise everything is really happen too fast.
FUCK. Everything seem to be happen like yesterday.
Why? Is too damn fast.
But who going to care?
FUCK~
My life is really damn fucked up.
Things are just happen in my life again and again.
Is the fate that i have to suffer all this shit things.
But i will get over it soon, hopefully!
I still can't believe things are changing now.
Hais...

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

What should I do?

2010-10-02T11:49:00.003+08:00

People gave me lots of advices of what should i do.
Maybe is just i misunderstood all things and make it to be so complicate.
I am sorry to create so many troubles and problems to you guys.
I really hope the best for you guys.
MUST BE HAPPY K? LOL!

What i am going to do now?
I have to go back and learn my driving.
Date all my old friends out.
Regardless is who, even my ex, i am willing to be back friend with him again.
I think there is no point to lose someone who i am happy with before.
And I will treat them even better than last time because I really know friendship is really very important part of my life.
Without them = without me.
Those who help me pull through the most low of my life people, i will like to say thank you!
Sincerely!

I miss my mum. =.=
She's going to malaysia now! OMG~

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正的可笑

爱得太真太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
但我相信有点可能

可能在爱里面这样算笨
可能永远没有所谓永恒
但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

2010-09-28T23:43:00.004+08:00

Forget it man! I will get a life by myself.
September is too much happening for me to handle.
Thanks for giving me such a good memories and now everything is gone.
Happy moments won't last long.
I really agree with it.

After sometime, i will still be going back to my life which belong to me.
Lonely and easy life. =D
Seeing you guys happy, and i will be happy.
No matter what, just find me if you guys got problems.

I saw a person just change too easy when that person got whatever it needs.
I treasure this friendship alot alot alot.

2010-09-22T12:59:00.003+08:00

Back from genting trip. =D
Long story ar. LOL~ Read it if you wants to. =.=

18 Sep 10
Suppose to meet up with jy to have mj session but we don't have enough player. So we decided to cancel it. Was rotting at home while waiting for xl and rx to come to my house. Both of them reach my house around 10, 11 plus. Had mac for supper. Slack and chit chat at my room till morning.

19 Sep 10
My dad fetch us to lavender MRT and surprising those guys reached eariler than us. =.= Once in a life time. LOL. Queue up and got our bus no and seat no. The bus moved off around 6.50am. Reached genting around 12pm. Through out the journey, I guess I was the only one who didn't sleep at all. Hahaha... Maybe I just too excited. =O Reached genting and everyone was excited, weather was so cooling. Hmm..queue up for our hotel room no and had KFC for our lunch. I was so tired that I forgot I order enough chicken for everyone yet I went to queue up again. =.= KFC burger suck TTM~ Waste my money. Back to the place where we need to queue up for our hotel room key. I requested for connecting room, but we reached our hotel room then we realise that our room doesn't have connecting room. And we have to go down to the lobby to change again. Something bad happen. I felt sorry... =( Change room and everything settle down, decided to check whether we are able to play outdoor theme park. Start playing from 5 pm. Played all those thrill ride, see each other "scare" face, hear each other shouting....Was lame but is fun. =)

Went back to hotel, bathed, slacked and all of us was exhausted. Dragged ourself to have dinner. LOL~ Dinner was suck, expensive and I couldn't finish it. Walked around and went back to hotel room. Everyone fall a sleep around 10 plus.

20 Sep 10
Saw rx went to toilet at 5am plus, and was awake after that. We 3 girls was discussing to have mac for breakfast, wake thai up and off we went to mac. We called wg's room and we thought they were still sleeping, ended up we called wrong number. =.= Had breakfast, walked around to other hotel. Backed to our room at 8am. When I went to bath, they were lazy to go sunway and told me that they don't feel like going. I start to feel like "WTF" and sian. Ok, i endure and told them if don't want to go then is ok. After awhile, wg came to our room and say jk doesn't feel like going all shit. And I started to cry, i know i am stupid but i planned it for that long and every shit just happen to me in few minutes time. That feeling was suck. But I didn't blame anyone. Leave genting at 11 plus, and lucky we got a cab just outside the hotel. Everybody just start to listen to MP3 excepted for me, rx and wg. We started to talk rubbish till we reached sunway. I love the moment when we could actually have time to chit chat to each other in the bus or cab because the feeling was different from singapore. I don't know why too. LOL!

Reached sunway and the first thing we did was finding "WI-FI" and A&W. We were like some mad person when we saw there is Wi-fi in the shopping center. Settle lunch and went to lagoon to have fun. Fuck, nearly got accident. But nothing happen too. =.= Leave the place at 6pm, went back to sunway pyramid to have dinner. And everyone was tired again. Brought cupcake for xl and wg belated birthday. Brought beer for celebration but somethings just cropped up so randomly. Suppose was happily yet................Fuck man! First time, i saw rx was so angry. I got nothing to say about that what things happen because I was in the fault too.

Went back to our room, everything settle down and they went to sleep. While me and thai was chatting till when he went to smoke. Something happen again. I wasn't taking his words seriously when i said "don't tell me you want to faint ar?" and he reply "ya". That time, i thought he was just joking. After i went to toilet, i heard a loud bang. I was so shocked and asked him what happen. He didn't reply me after a few second, he came and said "i fainted". FUCK~ I really got freaked out. Lucky nothing happen to him.

21 Sep 10
Last day at genting. I slept for like 1, 2 hour nia. And we had mac for breakfast again. =.= Is like our meals at genting confirm will have fast food. LOL. Back to hotel room, bathed, packed our stuffs and check out around 12 pm plus. Since the time was still early, they went to arcade while me and thai were waiting for them at mac. Aftermath, we had to take coach and leave genting. LOL~ I was seating with wg and i didn't know we could talk from the start till we reached singapore. 7 hours of talking. WTH right? It was fun to talk to him. Thanks for entertaining me through out the journey. =D

22 Sep 10
Thought that i can get up for work, in the end my body was just stuck in the bed. LOL~ So i went to get MC, yet i still went out to meet them for mid autumn festival. Was dragging myself to go out because i didn't eat for a whole day plus i didn't sleep enough too. Manange to survive through. LOL! People go holiday to enjoy but i was suffering. Hahaha... Didn't sleep well and eat enough. In the end, i loss 2kg. =(

Was fun with them, but hope no one will anyhow thinks lor. Enjoy life. Glad to say: I love my life now!! I never felt so happy before. No stress, no emotion, no unhappiness, no quarrel, no tears. Just laughter... =)

I am sorry. I am sorry for everything. I am the one who cause everythings to happen. I don't want anyone of you to get hurt. Don't need to bother whether i am sad or what, i just want you all to be happy. Because I know the feeling being hurts, is really painful. That's why I don't want any of you to have that feeling.

Sorry to those who worried for me. As i don't know i lost my appetite and my sleeping hours too. I will be alright soon~

I know what I should do!

2010-09-18T16:05:00.002+08:00

Busy week.

And again, 4 days straight slept less than 4 hours. =.=
No bad, cause i still can endure and went to work too. =)
Went out on tuesday with rx, xl and thai for dinner.
Aftermath went to find jy at his house area, because he got chicken pox.
Was shocked when saw him.
He's in terrible condition.
But he still look cheerful. Faster get well, so we can go out and have fun. =D

13 hours more to go...
Excited for my genting trip.
Hopefully it won't rain, as i plan all the activities for so long..
And please nothing happen tooo.... *pray hard*

Just wondering something.
I just feel is weird but I hope i won't do something stupid.
Maybe i just watch too much drama. =.=
One sentence - 是你的就是你的
But i doubt this sentence will happen in my life again.
Good luck to whoever understand what i am talking about.

Treasure all the things i have now.
I believe it won't last long.

Off to pack my stuffs....

2010-09-13T22:17:00.003+08:00

My leg still hurt.
Ok, i did something crazy again.
Went to find ruixian on saturday after her work.
And went to clarke quay to settle my dinner, slack and talk.
Leave that place at 12am plus.
Start walking from clarke quay to ps to orchard to toa payoh to potong pasir.
I reached home at 6am plus.
Super crazy~ Enjoy the walking trip. =D

Browse through my photos album and saw lots of ugly, funny, lame photos.
Remember the times we had our night cycling?
Remember the times we went to Ktv?
Remember the times how we celebrate each other birthdays?
Remember the times we had fun during our chalet?
Why can't i play hard during that time?
Treasure all the best memories I have now. =D

Sometime I feel bad for something.
I couldn't do anything or help up too.
All i can do is just keep quiet and see what will happen next.
I am really useless.
No matter what someone will get hurt in the end.
So is better not to do anything.
Just stop and stare!
Nobody will know what i am talking about. =)

2010-09-11T20:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was an awesome day.
Did something new.
Went to airport first.
Suppose I was the one who accompany ruixian to buy something, in the end everyone tag along. =.=
Brought kite at mini-bite and took train to marina barrage.
Ok, is my 2nd time going there.
Is fun over there.
Because I did I want to do, FLY KITE!
Thanks for everyone going without complaining much. O.o
Enjoy alot last night. =)
Ton-ed over at my house.
But guess everyone was too tired, and they left my house around 6am plus.
LOL. There goes my public holiday.

Still haven eaten anything yet.
Don't feel hungry too.
What is happening to me?

Why am I bothering it so much?
Gosh!! I need something to distract me..
I need to train myself not to let people know what I am thinking.
Just Shut The FUCK Up.
Silence is golden.

2010-09-09T19:48:00.002+08:00

Lack of sleep for this past few days.
Imagine i only get to sleep like 4 hours for the past 3 days.
I am dying soon. =(

Thanks everyone for saying "I look cheerful and happier than last time"!
Is the fact that i am happy now.
No trouble for relationship.
No more EMO!
Is good to live without trouble and emo.
That why I can be happy than last time. =)

Genting is booked and will be going there on next sunday.
Like finally after so long, I grant my wishes.
Thanks everyone to fulfill it with me. =)
Love you guys!!

Now is 7.51pm and shall sleep real soon but my bro stuck at the toilet for like 30minutes.
WTF~

2010-09-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

SHAG DAY!
Firstly I only slept 4 hours for the past 2 days.
Secondly my instructor didn't stamp my driving for me that mean my $58 is gone.
Thirdly I fail my FTT just by a mark.
Just want to shout "FUCK MAN!!!"
=(

I realise that my relationship cause me to get closer with them.
If I am still together with him, I might not know that I have such a wonderful branch of friends.
Not only that, we get closer and we change too.
Our attitudes are much more good than last time.
I just want to say "Thank you" to him.
Thanks for saying goodbye to me. I grant the friendship that I always wanted. =)

Our genting trip is double confirm. Yeah~
Shall book the tickets tomorrow or thursday!

Ok, I have to sleep now.
Damn shag day.
Hopefully that person won't pester me tonight. LOL!

2010-09-06T19:13:00.003+08:00

Random post.
I create a trouble and feel bad about it.
I am really sorry but i know you won't read my blog.
You plan everything and yet I spoil it. =(
Sigh~

Thanks for listening to my trouble and advice me what to do.
Shall forget everything, and live on happily.

FTT tomorrow and i haven even start studying yet.
Too tired for that. =.=
Plus tomorrow shall camp at CDC for half a day.
Driving + e-trial + FTT.

2010-08-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

OMG! Just tell me how I can I don't fall in love with him.
He's damn too handsome. Plus cute, tall and everything good about him.
But too bad, I won't see him in person except in youtube. HAHAHAHA~
Was finding his pictures at google and make me so "high" while searching.
He is really damn too hot~ *huuu*

I think I should be getting a 2nd SLR camera.
Since I am a beginner, why don't just get a 2nd hand first and play around with it before getting a really SLR camera?
Should be a good idea. =)

Tomorrow is the day.......
1 September 2010.
Waiting for you!

At that time, we are not mature enough for each other.

2010-08-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

Guess last week, I ton-ed too much and make me so tired.
Reached home at 6 am in the morning on sunday.
Slept and wake up at 12 plus.
Use computer, watch Hello baby. Damn funny show.
Out with my parents for breakfast/lunch/dinner at 3 plus.
Back home, help me dad to do something.
Off to bed at 6 pm.
Slept till 7am in the morning.
Was damn lazy to wake up.
Thought of switching on my laptop, but was too lazy to get up.
My Lazy Sunday. T_________T

I think everything is fated.
Why that show appear in tv and make remind me of my "last time" watching that show with him at his house? FUCK~
Forget it. Emo Guy. =.= LOL!

My colleague is really very irritating, keep pestering me to play mahjong.
I not that addicted yet.
Give me a life man! =)

I guess genting is a CONFIRM.
Wooooo~ I am really looking forward the day to arrive.
And I am excited to get my spectacle too.

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish to go back to a place much simpler than this

2010-08-28T17:59:00.003+08:00

I broke my contact lens. =( Upset TTM~
Decided to get a spectacle because I can't see clearly during night.
Especially when i am driving, couldn't see the green arrow is turning left or right. T.T
Spent $275 for my spectacle, kinda of crazy. But is branded and i love the color too.
My eyesight is not that deep yet. So i have to save it back now. Hopefully~ LOL

Step up 3 was awesome.
Thanks for accompany me to watch.
I have download all the songs but can't find the last song.

Going to meet up with wen gui and thai loong for dinner. YEAH~
Is been a long time since i saw them.
2 weeks? LOL.

2010-08-23T10:03:00.001+08:00

Salt is a awesome movie, but i guess there is part 2. LOL
Just finished online. =)

Went out with my colleague on saturday.
And I brought alot of things that day.
Real shopping spree for me.
Shall do it every month. It bright up my day too~

I just wonder why there is someone who is so petty, talk without using brain, everyone need to listen to what that person say..whatever is it mean that person is just too way selfish.
I don't want to bother what she/he is thinking.
Just wish that person good luck for itself future.
Don't change = losing friend

Somehow i was happy/shock when she told me that person thing.
Yeah~ I think i am desperate for it.
HAHAHA, i admit it. I AM DESPERATE!

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

2010-08-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

Everyday of my work, i will definitely talk about genting trip with my colleague. Not only that, will do research for it too. hahahaha~ That's my life during my work.

Let me think what should i blog about.
Life seem to be normal every single day.
I am looking forward to night cycling next week and my genting trip next month, hopefully this two outing can make it. =D
I wonder why that couple quarrel in FB? Is it so fun to let the whole world know they are quarreling. =.= Kinda of lame. Not a young couple too. LOL~ 他们开心就好!

Chose to keep quieter for something. =O Nvm, shall stick to my old plan.

This 2 days, was watching 2am leader video at youtube.
He entertain me alot.
The ways he dance, is so fucking funny. GO watch it if you want to laugh. =.=

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

2010-08-16T20:38:00.002+08:00

I am super tired!
Saturday didn't sleep at all.
Sunday slept for 5 hours nia. Is not even enough for sat's sleep.
Chatted phone with ruixian and thai loong. Was a lame chat. LOL!
Is my first time talking to both of them on phone.
Suddenly i feel that thai loong is such a talkative person.
Maybe he had open his heart to us, that why he talks alot. LOL!
That's good. =D
Chat for like 1hr 50 minutes, from 12am plus till 2am.
That's why i am so shag for today.

Finally my colleague add me in fb, shall show you all next meet up.
She even went to tell the guy about me. =.=
She seem to treat me very good, but from what i heard from thai and xl make me freak out leh.
Anyway I need to protect myself too.
Once bitten, twice shy.

2010-08-15T19:58:00.003+08:00

I am mad!
We are mad!
Seriously damn fucking mad!
Only those one was toning will know why. LOL~
I feel that toning session can make us understand better.
Because we can talk lots of heart to heart chat.
Yup, is great to have them as friends. =O
Love them TTM!

I feel I am really useless, seeing you have trouble I don't know how to help you.
Still remember that time, you were so concern about me and my relationship life and wanted to ask me out but i was so stubborn.
And now you have trouble, i couldn't help you at all.
I am really a useless friend.
Sigh~ Making you happy when we meet up that is only thing i can do.
But just sometime you ignore. -.-
I really don't wish to see you crying for work again.
Is really don't worth it. You are a person who can suffer toughness and smart, i believe you can find a job easily. Is just that whether you want to try anot. Every job is the same, but don't just see the money nia. You are still young, and you also need to enjoy your life too. This job make your life so fucked up, and you also miss out alot of fun with us too.
This is just a advice to you, and i know what you thinking of.
As a friend, I REALLY doesn't want to see you suffering for this job.
Just one last thing, make up your mind and just do it.

I got to say i HAD let go of the relationship.
So don't come ask me stupid question. LOL~
I admit that starting of the break up, I still think that he will come back to me one day. But I don't have the mindset now.
I really really doesn't think about him anymore.
Just like the video he post at FB, I think the words are true and i went to "like" it =.= Doesn't mean anything.
I open up my heart everything, seeing through everything......

2010-08-14T13:23:00.002+08:00

Woolala~ Going out with usual gang again.
Is alright to meet up with same people every weekends.
Because i LOVE them! LOL!
And i not going to bother what they going say about my dressing all this.
Cuz they are GAYS after all. LOL~
Troublesome gays!!!!

Yesterday meet up with boss and rx after work, is a awesome outing too.
I love them TTM!
They make me life bright up.
I think is the first time we had MAC for dinner.
Sit there for like at least for 45 minutes, talk lame thing!
Yup, doing/talking lame things are always what we do.
Meeting up with them are the best!
And I realise a quarrel can the friendship more better and treasure.
Just like me and Boss! Although the quarrel are DAMN stupid, but luckily it didn't spoil our friendship. And make treasure this friendship more than last time.
友情万岁!!!!

2010-08-12T22:26:00.003+08:00

Today finally did a thing after 1 month plus. I remove all our photos in my room and put it somewhere that I couldn't see. Lol. Is kinda of random!

Talked to jy's sister regarding online contact lens, in the we brought at difference blogshop. Lol! Lame~

I don't know what to write anymore. I still looking forward next month! Hopefully by the time, everything could settle down and start refresh!

Ok, nite everyone. Gonna wake up early tomorrow. =)

2010-08-11T20:48:00.003+08:00

Was reading this while working

Here are some tips on what you should do in the early days of a breakup to let the healing begin.

1. Avoid him for at least a few weeks. Seeing your former flame can bring out emotions and may cause you do to or say something you will regret. - I don't have former flame. =.=

2. Talk about your feelings with close friends. Get everything out so you won’t hold it inside. Your friends may get sick of hearing you talk about the situation but you need to let out all your feelings and thoughts. - My friends are obviously sick and tired of hearing the same old thing. =.=
3. Cry if you want to. It’s OK to cry over a loss. Don’t hold back, let the tears roll, but do it in a safe and private place. - Safe? How safe?LOL. =.=

4. Let go of mementos. Put aside or give away anything that reminds you of the relationship. Hide them out of sight so he will be out of mind until you’re able to remember the relationship without longing for it. - I am just simply to lazy to do it. =.=

5. Focus on all the things about your ex that drove you crazy, turned you off, or you just found plain annoying. It’ll make you feel better to remember your former flame was not perfect and there are things you won’t really miss about him. - Yeah~ Alot of things!

6. Think about the mean, cruel or rude things your ex may have done in your relationship. Really give these things play in your memory. Remind yourself that somebody who truly cared for you would not have done such thoughtless things and tell yourself you’re better off without that kind of ego-crushing behaviour in your life. - YEAH! I totally agree!!

7. Maintain a strict no contact policy and stick with it. Don’t pass notes through friends. Don’t make any calls. Stay away from instant messaging or texting on your cell. Avoid all contact until you are totally and completely sure you no longer want to be with him. It’s the only way you can move on once and for all. - I already move on without him. =)

I think I am abit emotion about yesterday stuff.
After thinking for a day, I think that is none of my business.
Because I don't have the right to control his life plus if any girls want to throw herself on him, is already got nothing to do with me.
And I only care for him as a friend that's all. =D

Fuck my day! My hand got lots of small paper cut.

2010-08-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

I am sorry to say that I need to make my twitter private.
Because of some personal reason.

Was very pissed of at that thing.
Why so suddenly? After we broke off, she started to do it.
I really damn pissed off.. Fucking slut~
Luckily he didn't do anything, if not I don't know what I will do.

I need Courage pill, can anyone buy/do for me?

2010-08-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

What a national day! LOL~

Let's blog what happen for my long weekends.
Saturday 070810
Meet up with xl, jk, wg and jy, went to Paragon to pass rx charger first.
Then took bus to PS, walked to Left foot shop, but saw a shoe i like yet don't have my size anymore. *suck thumb*
Back to PS and settle our dinner at Cafe Cartel, food was okay but services damn FUCK! Still have to pay service charge. WTF!
Took tickets and wait for our movie to start.
Watched The Last Airbender, storyline suck and is just the effect of the fighting is too awesome.
Took NR6 to my house here and slack till 6am in the morning.
HOME SWEET HOME!

Sunday 080810
Stay at home till 6pm and went out to have dinner with my parents.
Aftermath, my dad drop me at kallang MRT and i took cab to my colleague's friend house at tampines.
Play mj from 9pm till 2am.
Took cab home.
Slept at 3am.

Monday 090810
Is national day! Kinda of sucks.
Went out with my mum.
Brought 1 tee and 1 dress.
Went back home around 6 pm plus, and watch National Day with my dad and my bro.
Was saying about the army stuffs.
Is weird because last time he was the one who tell me about the army stuff but no longer now. =(
Brought KFC and wanted to get back home to see JY performance, but I missed it! FUCK!

I really really miss those life. Be it is happy or sad. If I have a wish, i hope everything could just stop there. I was so damn hoping to see u again. I don't know why too. I thought, i thought, i thought...Everything is just I thought, but do things will happen on me again? I doubt so. I can't see any futures in my life anymore. I can't see my fate too. I don't know this will take how long. Or is it because I don't have a new love and that why I keep thinking about him?

People will just think, why do i still all this shit thing again and again. I don't know why too. I just want to blog out my feelings that all. My life still damn FUCK up! Can't change to a better one. SIGH! Fuck!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-09T02:14:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Tampines. Sigh!
Was playing mj with my colleague plus her bf's friends Gf.
At least I won. LOL~
They are too scary, just like ah lian. Guys are like ah beng. Freak me out. =(
Don't think will join them play again.
Because is too far plus i have to take cab home while their Bfs got car. =.=
LOL! I must back to my normal life again. =.=

Whatever I miss, time will really never go back again.
Letting go of everything, is my only choice now.
I trying my best and I hoping I can do it.
Next month is september, and i ask myself a question - should i or not?

PS: I need really need to get a spectacle soon~ FML~ Lost everything! FUCK!

2010-08-07T12:05:00.002+08:00

Laugh out loud day!~

One day two very loving parents got into a huge fight,
the man called the women a “bitch” and the women called the man a “bastard”.
Their son walked in and said “What does bitch and bastard mean?”
and the parents replied “ladies and gentlemen”.

The next day the parents decided to have sex,
the women said “feel my titties” and the man said “feel my dick”.
Their son walked in and asked “What does titties and dick mean?”
and the parents replied “hats and coats”.

On Thanksgiving the dad was shaving and he cut himself, “Shit” he said,
the kid came in and asked “What’s that mean” a
nd the man said it was the brand shaving cream he was using.

Down stairs the mom was preparing the turkey,
and she cut herself, “Fuck” she said.
Once again the kid asked “What’s that mean”
the mom said that is what she calls stuffing the turkey.

Then the door bell rang.
The kid answered the door to his relatives and said
“Alright you bitches and bastards, put your dicks and titties in the closet,
my dad is upstairs wiping the shit off his face,
and my mom is in the kitchen fucking the turkey!

I love the last part. High five! Awesome~

2010-08-06T22:07:00.003+08:00

Long weekend is here. =)

Like finally i can rest for extra day during weekdays. *smile*
Saturday plan watching movie that all. Kinda bored~
Sunday and monday no plan.
My colleague asked me to join her to play mj, and shun bian know her bf's friend too. Ya, she is trying to help me. She such a a good person. Might ask her out if i am willing too. No harm mah. =)

Shall sleep soon. Too tired for me to think anything now. And nobody is at home except for my mum.

PS: I lost my virgin again. O.o Contact lens! Going to wear it out for the whole month, provided i am going out. =)

Let's end a photo of me. lol! =D